///FIRST FEATURE 6.21.10

29 pages in.

i've written another four tonight on my march toward 70, 80, 90? somewhere in there. i'm not all too concerned with the page count as much as getting something i can stand behind. something i can put in front of a lens and say... HERE I BEGIN. at the same time, i'm trying not to wrap up too much in the "importance" of the effort. i'm trying to allow the script to breathe and be what it needs to be. BUT, i am trying to keep a clear mind and not hold anything back. no compromise. not here. not with this one. i know there will be constraints, but i mean no compromise particularly with the characters. they must do and say EVERYTHING to get what they want and need. i don't know that i've held back in the past, but i'm trying to make sure that even at this early stage, i'm pushing everything to its most logical (to me) and dramatic (traumatic) conclusion.

LOTS OF BLOOD will help too, obviously.

i'm not sure what this (this blog) will be anymore. maybe just a place to decompress after a couple pages. think about thinking. keep my brain processing. meta meta meat shit.

a quick note on process this time out: i've decided to go with a VERY loose outline that i've been keeping in my molsekine. and by that, i mean it's a long string of single words and short phrases. i'm slowly discovering that while i need the overall structure, the spine set in - scene to scene and IN the scene i need to keep it very loose until i actually lay it down on the page. otherwise, i feel stale and trapped before i even hit a key. process of process.

tonight's outline was:

IS THIS WHO YOU ARE?
CLEANED UP
TIME FOR A DRINK
WHY WOULD YOU GO THRU ALL THAT?
LEVEL WITH ME
THERE WAS SOME BLOOD
THIS IS A STRONG DRINK
CLOTHES
WHAT WERE YOU LOOKING FOR?
OUT